Past Writings & Self Reflection

I found a document in an old file on my computer from about a year & a half ago of some of my journal entries...With the new year starting it was fun to read what I had written in the past. Have I changed?? Do I still have obstructions??

Part of a Journal Entry 6/20/09

"I find myself having a sleepless night and spending time with the shadows that cover the ground as the moon says hello. I stare wondering... about a shadow? (A shadow is an area where direct light from a light source cannot reach due to obstruction by an object.) What object or objects are an obstruction to the area of my heart that keeps me from feeling the healing “light source” that is my Heavenly Father & Savior?

Part of a Journal Entry 6/21/09

I'm tired, I can feel my body begging me to let it rest if only for a moment; there's no time, I'm driven to go for a run where my thought seem to go at a much faster pace then my feet can carry me. I'm slow today, I can feel my body wanting to shut down wondering how it is to carry me when I don't take care of it. A thought runs through my head; I'm barely able to catch it & wrap my mind around it before another one intrudes. “Why are you doing this to me?” I'm caught off guard and slow to a walk. Why? Is this is an object that obstructs the “light” from reaching me? It is...isn't it? The way I treat my physical body is a reflection of how I treat my spiritual one (one can not progress without the other). or can they?